Finally Moving.......

Well since my last post I have come to realise that its me that needs to slow down.....whats that saying "take time to stop and smell the roses" well I think that is what I have realised I need to do. This is just such an emotional journey and sometimes you get so caught up with "loosing weight" you really do forget to stop and look at the big picture and realise what you have already accomplished.

I was feeling really frustrated in my last post, thinking that everything was at a bit of a stand still, I was having problems eating some foods but then not feeling as though I had enough restriction on quantity of others...but I had to stop once again and realise that since I had had all my fill removed and been able to return to the "good old life" that now having more fill put in also means slow down on the eating and chew chew chew as we read everywhere, so why doesnt it register in our brain.

My husband often looks at me eating and says to me why? Why did I eat that when I knew it was going to cause me grief 10 mins later, and I look at him and just shrug my shoulders because he's right, why cant my brain allow me the common sense to say no and stop eating things that I know I cant.
So that has been my week, I have really taken note of what I have been eating BEFORE it goes in my mouth rather than after. I know anyone who may be reading this is thinking.......why would you do that, surely you know what works and what doesnt? But the truth is I dont have an answer for why my brain thinks the way it does....all I know is, nothing can prepare you for what you go through emotionally after banding and everyones journey is so different to the rest.

But since been sensible this week and really taking note, I am finally moving down the scales. This morning I was down to 103kg so I am feeling more confident to start another week........

Time to measure again

I was just having a look at my blog and thinking, I have been trying to keep a postitive outlook since having these setbacks lately and even though the weight seems to be at a standstill these past few months I keep getting an amazing amount of comments from people about how good I am looking so it has got me curious and I have decided to do the measurements again.........

Chest: 115
Abdo: 101
Waist: 103
Tummy: 130
Hips: 126
Thigh: 71
Arm: 35

Nup, I'm just the same........who knows!!! Oh well I will keep a postitive attitude, back to the gym in the morning to see if I can tone up this flabby body........LOL...

my photos

I have just realised my photos have all been cut in half when changing my template.......so for those of you looking.... no Ben and I havent split up and him missing in the family photo is not deliberate!!!! LOL.... will have to look into that and work out why it has happened........

January 08

Well what a few months it has been......my band has given me a bit of greif....I was trotting along loving life with my new restriction and my fantastic weightloss to then have it all come to a sudden holt...with Reflux. I now have a new appreciation for those poor little babies that suffer from it...it really hurts....
So in turn I had to have all my fill removed, which of course the fat person within reared its ugly head and realised no fill means no restriction!!!!!!!!!! Yep you guessed it 7kg GAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Which of course doesnt make it any easier when your doctor tells you thats a good thing as you probably lost it too fast anyway!
So now I am back at being filled 0.5mls every month and so far have got back up to 4.5mls, but just this weekend have had another set back with another bout of the reflux and the most excrutiating pain around my abdomin. After speaking with Dr they think it may be gallstones!
So this week will be all tests to determine if I have them or if I have had a slippage....god I hope its not a slippage! Or my fat person within is going to be living on the outside aswell!!!

Octobers Update

Well its been a little while since I have been on, I am a bit slack I know. I have been progressing well but suffering with the reflux and heartburn. I went back to my surgeon and had some fill taken out which did relieve it for sometime but its back again so I have an appointment with my dietician today to see if we can sort something out. I am happy though with my progress and am now down to 102kgs.
My Measurements as of this morning are
Chest 112
Abdo 103
Waist 103
Tummy 129
Hips 127
Thigh 68
Arm 37
I am now in a fat girls 18 which I am thrilled about. My main aims were to get below 100kgs and fit into a normal 18 so the goal is getting real close now and I am feeling very content and happy with my situation.Probably my bigest compliment so far has been bumping into a friend that I hadnt seen in a while and her not recognising me.

Wow, I cant believe how far I have come so quickly, I really am so happy with my progress. It really puts it all in to perspective when you see photos of where you came from.....Although dont get me wrong I have had my doubts at times when I havent been able to eat a thing, but looking at my overall progress I really do know I have done the right thing. Looking back at that photo of me in December just makes me think wow, if I had stayed on that track maybe I wouldnt have seen my beautiful children grow up as with the chest pain, breathlessness and body aches I was experiencing who knows how much longer it may have been before I ended up with a far more serious health problem...