About time!!!

I thought I would come on and do an update and I was shocked that it had been sooo long.  It feels like yesterday when I was on here and it was January... I couldnt believe it.

Well the past few months have been pretty smooth with the band. I only had one hiccup around Easter when I got the flu and the constant coughing chose to tighten my band. To which my beautiful Dr Fill came and did a house call and took 3 mls out...... and could'nt that come at a nicer time... I was very naughty and totally took advantage of it being Easter and all the Hot Cross Buns and Chocy's.... hence why I managed to gain 3 kgs in one weekend!!!!!

So from then week by week I have been going and having 0.3mls put back in, and at the moment I am managing most foods but in a baby bowl. Which is the place I really like to be. Its amazing how much you enjoy the taste of food when youve been too tight to eat it....

I now weigh 96kgs. I have been to visit a few plastic surgeons in the past few weeks too, as I have been left with a very large over hang of skin and everything down below seems to have headed south too. The surgeon assured me that by having a tummy tuck and by pulling everything back up not only will I realise I DO have a fanny.... but I will loose that weak bladder aswell....so in my eyes there is really no reason NOT to.....BRING IT ON!!!!

I have decided on a lovely surgeon who is new to Newy and plan on having the surgery at the end of the year. I would hope that I am around the 90kgs by then. Which really should be an achieveable mark.

Well thats about it for now. Till next entry, take care xx

Still in my Happy Little Place

Well nothing much has changed, its just dawned on me that it coming up to 2 years since I was banned and wow alot has happened in that time.... most of all I would say that I am content these days, I am comfortable in my body for the first time in years.
Since my last post I have lost another 3kgs and although I have been this weight before, this time its different, everything seems to have shifted into a different place. I have gotten alot of compliments of late even though my weight has been relatively the same.
Anyway not much to tell, Just wanted to touch base and say Hi......Oh and I guess to tell you that yes I am loosing and still eating. Im back at that happy place where really anything will go down,but it is taking me around 30mins to eat anything. I personally think this is a good place to be.
Attached Ive added a pic of me, this is of the board shorts that I had on in the photo of me in the pool below. At that time a size 26 was snug and I was having trouble getting clothes. This is the only item of clothing I have kept from "the old me" as it was a true indication of how big I was, boardies as many of you would know have no stretch in them. So I am very proud to say I can not only fit in one leg of them know, I can put my kids in them too...lol.

Happy as a pig in mud

I've finally got it!!!!!!!!! Yes I perservered and I finally understand what the "sweet spot" is. All this time I was thinking just a little more fill and I will be on a whirlwind of weightloss. But since my slippage I decided that slow and steady would hopefully win the race.
Well thanks to my ever so beautiful and understanding new doctor, slow and steady is winning the race.
I am proud to say that I had cancelled the last 2 appointments I had booked with Dr Fill, mainly cause I just wasnt sure where I was, somedays I felt like I could eat a horse, then the next day the horse would get stuck...and ouch I'd be back on fluids for a day.

So I was putting off my appt mainly scared he would want to take some out and in this 3 weeks I discovered, well my brain finally got it, that there are foods that are going to be a no no, nomatter how many times I try.

So I have come to the conclusion I want to be able to eat, I dont want to miss out like I was a year ago. So I went back and saw Dr Fill and admitted that I can eat just about anything and I am loving it, but that the reflux was still a major issue, so he went through the usual questions, am i eating after 7pm.....NO, have a elevated my bed....YES, blah blah, and yes we have agreed that I am just one of those unlucky ones that is going to suffer from reflux, So he put me on pariot tables and so far so good. The relief was instant.

But then.........he weighed me, and here I was thinking well my mind is in a really good place at the moment and my pants are feeling looser so it has to be something good and yep it was.....I have lost 4 kgs since seeing him 4 weeks ago. Whoooo Hoooo, I was so happy. and thats with eating!!!!!!!!! Ha Ha.....

So while I sit here on my little high, I am going to enjoy it......

On another note though, there is something that I would like to mention. For those of you out there that are finding your are emotionally struggling. I would have to say that up until around a fortnight ago I was feeling really down emotionally, not coping with the normal day to day stuff with the kids and really feeling out of control. I actually went to see my GP about going on antidepressants. Thankfully I am blessed with a wonderful GP aswell and she had a chat to me about the hormones, and how the hormones in our bodies change dramatically with such big amounts of weightloss and that this can often lead us to thinking we have depression when all it is is needing some leveling out to get the hormones right. So she actually suggested that I went back on the pill (something that I havent been on since having my tubes tied almost 4 years ago) as the pill mucked me around and i am hopeless at remembering to take those damn little tablets, I asked if I could go back on Depoprovera then, but she explained that apparently there is something in Depo that increases your chances or osteoporosis, and as having the band also increases your chances of that we didnt want to double that. So the last choice was to have an IUD put in called the Mirena. It has a slow release hormone in it that lasts 5 years, and this should help me level out the hormones.
So 2 weeks ago I went to the gyno and had one put in. Although extreemly uncomfortable procedure, I cant tell you the difference I feel it is already making....... I am feeling more in control. So I just wanted to share this with you as I know others who have had the same experience with the out of control feelings and maybe this is why alot of surgeons all over Australia are insisting you see a psychologist as part of the whole banding package. It acutally makes sense...... Well till next time. Keep Safe xx

an update

Well I thought I would come on and give you an update, not that there is alot to update but hey there is a little :)

I am moving down ever so slowly I am now at 105.5kgs which is fine, I even pleased myself today when I called and cancelled my next appt. I am finding that my restriction at the moment is good, not as much as I think I would like, but I keep telling myself to take it slow this time.... I can eat most things with the exception of bread, the difference I am still finding is that I tend to be able to eat for a few minutes fine and then feel discomfort whereas before I would feel discomfort whilst eating....

But thats about it.....till next time

Reflux Fixed!

Oh and I forgot to mention to those of you who have messaged me about Reflux,

I have found a way to eliminate this completley ...... My Dr had said well you just cant eat after 7pm, which I was really struggling with as if the kids have afternoon activities and if Ben gets work after hours we often dont eat until quite late. So everynight as much as I had good intentions it just didnt happen and I would end up choking as soon as I went to bed.

Then I had a thought that I could just have refux tablets in the evening and maybe that would help.....WRONG! It didnt do a thing....so with much frustration I can tell you this is the solution I came up with....

Dont eat ANYTHING after 8pm, (I had to make it 8 as 7 just wasnt do-able) and then sip on boiling water for the evening....I know sounds boring doesnt it, and it has taken some real will power not to want that evening snack but the boiling water somehow tricks my mind into thinking i am having that evening coffee......I know weird! But hey if it works dont knock it.

Since doing this I am no longer waking choking on vommit......and we all know how revolting that is!

no to chicken but yes to sandwiches ?????

Well since I last posted I have been back to see the always beautiful Dr Fill, he gave me 0.3mls which initially I was thinking...oh thank goodness I didnt get the 0.5mls as I was really restricted to liquids only on the first few days, but now having that amount for over a week I am feeling thankful I have another appt on friday as I my appetite is back, and although I struggle on somethings such as chicken or pasta, I can still quite easily get down a sandwich???? Go figure!!!!

So my weight is 106 which is great that it is moving in the right direction, but seems to have stuck, so hopefully after friday I will be able to reach that sweet spot and not need to go back for some months....

Anyway bandsters, till next time...
xx

movin movin movin....

Well I'm 2 days away from my next fill and as I think I said in the last post it often takes 2 weeks to know the real restriction so Im glad I have another fill booked.
This time it has definatley given me restriction, but not quite enough, I have however lost 3kg now so I am very happy to say its moving in the right direction.
The first week I was thinking yippee I can barely eat a thing, now I am back to eating everything, but a much smaller amount and taking heaps longer. So I think another 0.2mls will make all the difference. I dont want to be back where I was when I couldnt manage a thing, this time I have come to accept that I still want to be able to eat food....just no where near as much .... cause lets face it....I love food!
But the goal of 100kgs by Christmas seems very do-able now. So feeling very happy about the future. xx