Saturday, May 31, 2008

Stage 2 Begins

Well the beginning of stage 2 has arrived and it could not have come soon enough.... I really struggled in those few weeks with my band undone. Struggled with the emotions of wanting to eat everything and the fear of gaining it all back.

So Tuesday was a welcome relief. I went in first thing in the morning which was great as I didnt want to be sitting there all day. As it was I was 3rd on the list to be done and luckily for me no.2 didnt show up so I was done even sooner.

Spent the next 2 days recouperating, while my family went crazy around me.....its nice sometimes to know they cant cope without you, but stressful when you know theres nothing you can do about it either....So Thursday morning I came home and got back into the swing of things - there is no rest for the wicked they say!!! LOL

I am still a little sore and taking things slower but feeling great and so relieved to have that restriction back. Scales this morning bought me back to 103.5 so were heading in the right direction....

Have appointment with Dietician on Monday so will move onto mushys from there.... Ben is cooking Bacon and Eggs at the moment and I could just about go and lick his plate...but no I will be strong.... mmmm do wonder though how they would go in the blender!!! LOL

Well off to the markets... will write again soon when I have something more to tell

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Ready for Stage 2

I have just over a week to go till I go in again and have my surgery. I'm so excited to be going back. Interesting though I cant name the amount of people who have said to me.

"Do you think you would be better just to leave it and enjoy eating again???"

and my answer is "Hell NO!"

In the past 4 weeks I have gained around 6kgs, now if that isnt telling me where I would be now without surgery...what is? I mean I know alot of that is probably fluid as I was so dehydrated but 6 kgs!!! AAAHHHH!

I do often think about where I would be now had I never gone ahead with the surgery, and part of me wonders......maybe dead! Its scary to think where my lack of will power takes me, and even more reason why I want to get the whole banding thing right this time.....

I have to say though, now back on the optifast stage, I feel like its all new again and I find myself going back and reading everyones intial blogs to see where I am going to be at. The hardest thing for me I think will be to slow down. The chew, chew, chew part is the hardest as I've always been more of a gulper!!! LOL!

So back at now 103.5 kgs I am ready to embark on Stage 2...... hopefully my next entry will be after my surgery and at the 99kg mark again! What a rollercoaster! If not, and you are wondering where I am, I'll probably be down at the local shrinks office.....crying!! LOL!

Till then xxx