I have just over a week to go till I go in again and have my surgery. I'm so excited to be going back. Interesting though I cant name the amount of people who have said to me.
"Do you think you would be better just to leave it and enjoy eating again???"
and my answer is "Hell NO!"
In the past 4 weeks I have gained around 6kgs, now if that isnt telling me where I would be now without surgery...what is? I mean I know alot of that is probably fluid as I was so dehydrated but 6 kgs!!! AAAHHHH!
I do often think about where I would be now had I never gone ahead with the surgery, and part of me wonders......maybe dead! Its scary to think where my lack of will power takes me, and even more reason why I want to get the whole banding thing right this time.....
I have to say though, now back on the optifast stage, I feel like its all new again and I find myself going back and reading everyones intial blogs to see where I am going to be at. The hardest thing for me I think will be to slow down. The chew, chew, chew part is the hardest as I've always been more of a gulper!!! LOL!
So back at now 103.5 kgs I am ready to embark on Stage 2...... hopefully my next entry will be after my surgery and at the 99kg mark again! What a rollercoaster! If not, and you are wondering where I am, I'll probably be down at the local shrinks office.....crying!! LOL!
Till then xxx