Sunday, July 13, 2008

My new band name "Will Power"

Feeling very frustrated......I can still eat everything. 4mls is just not enough, I have an appt on Monday week with the dietician and I am hoping for some good news in the fill department. I dont remember still being able to down bread at 4 mls last time but I can this time.....this band is so confusing... I am thinking 4.5 is where I would like to be, I should find bread difficult then and meat a no no, I dont want to be silly and go back to where I was where a half an avocado was my daily intake but I do want my will power back and as I seem to have no control of my own, I want my bands will power to take over.

Clothes are still fitting in the size 18 but I cant say I would like them to feel any tighter..... before the whole fix up with the band I was closer to the 16 than the 18 now I feel like I am creeping back to the 20 and this cant happen as I have given all my 20s away.....lol and lets face it no one wants to see a size 20 roaming around without clothes on......

Had a dinner with my fellow bandits on Friday night and felt very jealous of some of them struggling to eat their soup, meanwhile I was eating my prawns, rice and salad then going a lemon meringue pie and coffee......see my will power has gone on holidays.....

I did however get forced to get up on the dancefloor as imbarrasing as it may have been but was pleasantly surprised to find even worse dancers than me performing at their best that night. I did laugh in the shower the next morning though when my hips were hurting from the dancing....lol But at least I may have gotten rid of some of the meringue fat.....

So I will sit with my premenstral bowl of chocolate now and wait until Monday week to see if we cant get this will power tighter....hey thats made me think of my name for the band. (many of my fellow bandits have a name for their band like, freddy etc) so i think I will call mine "Will power".
Till then xxx

1 comment:

Bridget said...

I wish I could have come on Friday night. Will see you Sunday though! Hope you get more fill soon hunni.
love bridget